” … almost every single “normal” person has a hard time understanding the way my mind works.”
Lately a few folks have asked me to describe how my mind works. To address the question, I focused on things such as how I can zoom from detail to big picture and back to detail, or how I can manage to do a variety of different things at once while heads spin around me.
I didn’t go into detail about how I sometimes notice things other people don’t, but then miss the obvious element the crowd is busy focusing on. That aspect is often tough to explain; I summed it up by saying that I’m creative. Over the years, I’ve struggled to understand myself so that I can make the most use of my skills in a world that seems to best support the top of the bell curve.
My guest today, artist Karin Perez, says that most “normal” folks don’t understand how her mind works. This comment brings up my suspicion that artists have a unique mental capacity or brand of focus. I suspect that most folks would likely agree. Somewhat like the LGBT crowd, artists come in all varieties. We long to live unhampered by so called “regular” folks out there. We hope to be understood. We support each other. Many succeed, but some of us struggle at times, in closets, behind closed doors, … or everywhere. We are yet another variety of the square peg in a world of round holes.
I’ve gone through several phases in my life when I wished I was just like everybody else. Of course, everyone is unique, but let’s face it, there are subsets or types of people out there, some more common than others. Even with the best intentions, stereotyping runs rampant.
When I was 24-years-old, I relocated to New Jersey from Louisiana in the Spring of 1991. I was immediately amazed and mesmerized by how brilliantly green everything was. One morning, I made the comment at work, “The grass is so green!” A not-so-nice woman looked at me like I was an idiot, and said, “Yes, well, grass is green.” Everyone laughed and in their eyes, I became someone much less intelligent than I am.
That was before I understood the artist in me, and why the green of Spring in New Jersey so captured my attention. Why I would notice that particular aspect of my new environment. Why I became so focused on it, and why I wanted to talk about it.
Now I realize that not everyone makes such observations, or puts such emphasis on them. Was it important? Maybe not to that sarcastic woman I worked with, but it was to me, a young person desperately trying to adjust to a new culture. A home sick misfit who’d never lived anywhere other than the Deep South. In that green grass, something unique called to me. I’d found a jewel that made me believe I could come to love my new home, that I could be part of it, and that perhaps I’d come to the right place. It signified new life, something I desperately wanted no matter how much I missed my old one.
So a comment that made me the work-place laughing stock held a tremendous amount of passion, observation, and significance for me. I was expressing exactly who I was, but they were blind to it. Now I know that the blind can’t help but miss these things just as much as I can’t avoid seeing them. That’s the world we live in.
Now, like Karin, I no longer feel an intense need to explain how my mind works. After years of generating laughs based on seemingly off-the-wall comments and strange observations, I now understand where it comes from. I’m proud to be me, even when a blind world laughs.
It’s so hard to tell one’s story, though each and everyone of us has one thing at least, that defines him/her from the other. I started my artistic life as something completely different. Ever since I was a young girl I was dancing, and this passion and dedication made me a professional dancer. That motivation is certainly something that defines me, that gets me where I want to go. After studying visual communication (while dancing), I started working as a graphic designer, and continued as an artistic director in one of Israel most creative multimedia companies.
After giving birth and moving with my family to Paris, I felt like my creative desire needed to find a new path. With with my husband’s support, I started painting with an immediate appreciation and interest from people and professionals. That was seven years ago. Right from the beginning I was fascinated by this new way of expression and interaction with myself and others. My voice found a new path.
There were many “ah ha” moments, but one that is definitely significant was starting to work in figurative art. When I discovered the process of photographing nudes and self portraits, and started using them, that was very new to me and something I would never have thought I’ll do … a very exciting new zone… Another “ah ha” was starting to work with the NY gallery, Monkdogz Urban Art, owned by two wonderful people, Bob Hogge and Marina Hadley. Bob is working with his artists on a different level of commitment, and by doing so I’m able to really let go and not think about other peoples thoughts about my work, being really a part of it and free.
I think that weighing those two for me is impossible. Both definitely motivate me.
Many artist focus on one particular subject or style. How important is this for career development? Have you ever grown tired of painting the same types of things, and if so, can you tell us about it?
I think that for an artist it’s very important to develop his own language, to create his own different world. It’s like every human being has his own voice and nobody else sounds like him … I believe that looking at an artist’s work and recognizing it easily is a turning point. Once you have that, you are unique.
Do you believe some of the various attributes related to being highly creative have caused you aberrations in life, helped you deal with life’s aberrations, or both?
But off course it did! 🙂 Aren’t we all (artists) a little bit scratched?
Oh yes, almost every single “normal” person has a hard time understanding the way my mind works. It’s always about explaining (which I hate and usually won’t do) my works, my decisions, my choices. I think that interesting art shouldn’t be comprehensive from first glance, and should raise some questions in the viewers mind. The viewers are participant of the work, which makes the work more interactive.
Have you developed a specific creative process that enables you to meet your artistic goals? If so, can you tell us about it. Where do most of your ideas come from?
Most of my ideas come from my restless mind … from imagination and images that are voyagers in my mind, for a second or for a long time, they will find their way to the canvas.
I think that what makes an artist really stand out is his determination, passion, and motivation. As you stated in the question, there are so many talented people, so in order to stand out is really about how dedicated you are to your art, how much do you invest in it in terms of commitment.
What is your primary motto or mantra in life? Why is this important to you?
My primary motto in life is to live in the present because you don’t really know what will happen tomorrow (how banal) … I believe that in most of my doing I am truthful to this motto, yet off course
you have other obligations to other people, so you can’t really live like that 100% of the time, but you can try.