“Through art , I synthesize, play, and let off all the complexity of my inner world.”
I have a strong suspicion that my inner world is more complex than the average Joe’s. I began to suspect this around age six, when I was lamenting about the kid in our class who was rumoured to have a mother who jumped off a bridge (and eaten by alligators) while I was trying to stop my own mother from killing herself.
By the time I was a teenager, my high speed turmoil and associated thought processes began to fuse with my innate outwardly sunny disposition to create a persona that most people couldn’t quite compute … causing all kinds of issues. Once I finally realized this, I stopped expecting to be fully understood, and I started writing novels.
Now I understand myself better than I ever have. Like my guest today, artist Claudia Furlani, I write and paint as a way to let off some of that complexity. I didn’t bolt out of bed one morning with the bright idea of doing this. The need and desire to do it simply evolved as I grew up and stepped away from my afflicted mother into my own life.
Recently a few folks have referred to me as a creative. It sounds like some kind of Star Trek alien nation. When I considered myself solely a writer, I never thought I’d be called a creative. I wasn’t even familiar with the word (used that way) until a couple of years ago. Everyone has the capacity to be creative and to create, so what exactly is a creative?
I researched the use of the term creative to describe a group of folks and didn’t come up with too much. Writer Jeff Goins ran a blog post about it in February. He says:
“A creative is an artist. Not just a painter or musician or writer. A creative is someone who sees the world a little differently than others. A creative is an individual. He is unique, someone who doesn’t quite fit into any box. Some think of creatives as iconoclasts; others see them as rebels. Both terms would be quite apt. A creative is a thought leader. He influences people not necessarily through personality but through his innate gifts and talents. A creative creates art — not to make a buck, but to make a difference. She writes to write, not to be noticed or to sell books. She sings to sing, for the pure joy of making music. And she paints to paint (and so on…). A creative colors outside the lines… on purpose. In so doing, she shows the world a whole new picture they never would have otherwise seen. A creative breaks the rules, and as a result, sets a new standard to follow.”
Is that what I do? I don’t like being put into categories, but being a creative doesn’t seem too bad. I still want to be my own category. It’s called being a Penelope, and there is no one else who can join me in it. It’s lonely sometimes but it’s where I need to stay. I’m driven to write and paint even if what I produce sucks. It’s a simultaneous trap and release. An obsession that sets me free. An escape that holds me down. Freedom among the ruins.
For me, the process of creating is like worship, therapy, vacation, work, and communication all swirled up into one. When you’re like me, you create because that’s what makes life bearable on a deep personal level that transcends even love. The people you love and who love you are supposed to be what makes life worth the effort, but I feed on something different. Perhaps this makes me narcissistic or psychopathic. Not sure. Perhaps I just need art to keep me sane so that I can love others and accept their love. Art makes love possible for me.
Oh, the mysteries of life. I think too much. I try not to, but it’s difficult to shut down the machine. Like Claudia, I’m introverted, observant, and very imaginative. We are passionate. I am still full of love that’s trying to get out. I grew up in an environment that was overwhelming. Art defined as “imaginative skill as applied to representations of the natural world or figments of the imagination,” has enabled me to bring my inner and outer worlds together in a way that best represents who I am. Almost everything else seems frivolous.
Art lasts forever.
Since I can remember, I’ve always been involved with color, paint, drawing or painting. During college I worked on several things including advertising agencies in the area of computer graphics, an area that has always fascinated me, but my passion for art and sheer will to create freely guided my choices.
How would you best describe your personality, and how your art relays that to the world?
I am an introverted person, observant, and very imaginative. Through art , I synthesize, play, and let off all the complexity of my inner world.
With regard to your current creative focus, was there an “ah-ha” moment you can tell us about?
Yes, there was a big “Ah-ha” and fortunately it’s becoming a new project that is underway. It’s about people their dreams and nightmares. I still can’t give many details in this moment so as not to spoil the surprise.
You seem to enjoy both painting and graphic art. Do you have a favorite or do you enjoy both equally? Can you tell us a little bit about what each gives to you in terms of the ability to express yourself creatively?
I do not have a favorite. Painting is something very lonely, and graphic art process is the opposite. I usually go out to photograph people or places, depending on the subject that I want to express. I choose one language or another.
Do you believe some of the various attributes related to being highly creative have caused you aberrations (issues) in life, helped you deal with life’s aberrations, or both?
Yes, I believe that has caused many, but today I do not worry about it. The creativity just helps me to cope and overcome the problems.
In what ways does art sooth or inspire you during difficult or challenging times?
The art helps, but you have to want to indulge yourself while you are creating, just so you move away from everything else. Your focus is just in your art. And at this moment all problems are dissolved
What do you believe places an artist apart from his or her peers? So many are highly talented, but what makes one stand out as truly gifted?
What is your primary motto or mantra in life? Why is this important to you?
I follow my intuition. I think this is my only mantra. It’s important to me because up until now has always worked very well.